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Discussion
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Hi, I just want to express something about my experience.
Life has been really hard for me as a Leo moon. I feel like Leo represents a very innocent, happy and joyful energy— Leo rules the heart, after all. Everyone I’ve met with Leo placements has this energy of playful innocence that makes me drawn to them… I love Leo energy.
So it’s not fair that my Leo energy has basically been snuffed out of expression thanks to other people. At my heart, I am an innocent, playful soul. I embodied this energy when I was younger, I was so excitable, and wore my heart on my sleeve. But almost everyone I met in my childhood was cruel to me. What was wrong with me? Why did people treat me like I was a defect, when I was just being happy and friendly?
Knowing now that I am a Leo moon, it makes me really sad to look back at my younger self and see what was happening to her. Leo just wants to love and be loved. I wasn’t loved, I was rejected constantly, in little ways and big ways. Both by the adults who were responsible for me, and other kids. By the time I was a teenager, I had become so detached from my feelings that I literally thought I didn’t have emotions. I *remember* actually thinking that. That I didn’t have emotions. That’s crazy to think now… Emotions are so important.
Even when I reached adulthood, and had my first job, I noticed that when I expressed my Leo energy, it made people not take me serious. Like they could disrespect me… like I was a joke. That’s when I finally learned that I could not show my emotional self or Leo-ness to people. What’s so bad about happy Leo energy that it means someone isn’t worthy of respect??
As an adult I now wear a mask of indifference when interacting with people I don’t know well. I’m too afraid to show my true personality to people because I don’t want to be rejected and feel that pain all over again. I just want to embody my Leo moon and enjoy self-expression and joy but I’m too traumatized now. It makes me really sad.
As a side note, the reason why I always like other Leo placements is because I can sense that carefree, innocent and non-judgemental energy in them and it makes it easy to trust them— because they’re like me.
End rant.