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Discussion
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WARNING: This is a very long post so I apologize in advance.
I have some questions regarding some “happenings” that have occurred throughout the years and I’m trying to see if someone can make sense of all of this. I don’t really know where to begin, so I’ll just start with some background.
I work in healthcare, and I have had dreams of patients before they pass. I will see their faces, hear their names. I will wake up with that same feeling I felt when I awoke from my nightmares of my grandma passing (that will be mentioned later). It has happened multiple times, to the point where when I have these dreams, I call them to check up on them. Their families answer to tell me they have passed on. Sometimes a day before, sometimes a week or two prior.
I also have a very strong intuition. I can tell someone’s intentions when I first meet them. Thus, I am VERY wary of the people I choose to let in my circle. I have had many instances where I haven’t trusted my instincts and have been screwed over.
With all of this in mind, I am a very sensitive person. I am extremely sensitive to peoples emotions, and when someone is upset or sad, I can feel it. But not just feel it, sometimes I can literally feel what they’re feeling, and it’s very overwhelming.
I have dreams of things that haven’t happened, that end up happening later on. My dreams are extremely vivid, I even have had the enjoyment of astral projecting in the past, but haven’t done it recently since my grandma died. I will have dreams of places, and I will remember them specifically, only to accidentally travel to them years later. And these won’t be places like, Mount Rushmore. It will be like very obscure places, like a small diner in a little town, or a garden or small pool.
I also have sensations of something watching me when I sleep. It is neither a good nor bad feeling, I just wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, and feel like there is a presence there. It used to scare the crap out of me, but I figured if I was in danger, something bad would have happened by now. But I’ve been having this feeling for years now.
Now here’s the very weird parts.
The night before my grandmother on my moms side was diagnosed with cancer, I had a dream of her telling me to “prepare myself” and vanished into thin air. I woke up that day extremely confused but I had a very weird feeling, like something shifted, but I couldn’t pinpoint it.
Later that day, I picked up a nail file she had gifted me years prior. She was a nail girlie and so am I, so she gave me a glass nail file that she had used and it was a very special thing for both of us. Anyways, I picked it up, and when I did, I had this horrible ringing in my ears and it was so bad I got dizzy, and dropped the nail file, shattering it to pieces.
Later that day, she was rushed to the hospital. Two weeks later we found out that she was diagnosed with stage 4 kidney cancer that had metastasized in her bladder, spine, and liver.
We visited every day. They had given her about 3 more years to live. Not the best outcome as I wanted her to live forever, but I wanted to make every moment count.
The night before she passed, there were no advances in her condition. Although she had her cancer, everything was stable. Or so we thought. I had a dream that night and we were in a big building with many doors. We were standing by the exit of the building when she told me goodbye and she would see me again, but much later and she vanished slowly walking into the building. I didn’t want it to be true. I frantically looked through every door, looking for her. Finally what seemed like hours, I found her laying on a bed, dressed in white. She said to me “get mom now” and died, right then and there. I woke up screaming and crying with an awful feeling. My husband was trying to console me but I told him my grandma was going to die today and he told me it was just a bad dream but I knew in my heart it wasn’t.
I called mom and told her to call the hospital to check up on her, because she was still staying there. Sure enough, she had greatly declined so they told us to gather everyone so we could go to the hospital and say goodbye for the last time. She died right in front of my eyes. I am still traumatized.
Fast forward a few months later. I was visiting my parents for the weekend and was waiting at the airport to catch my flight back home. Out of nowhere. I felt a drop in my stomach. I felt queasy and had a general feeling that something was wrong. I had a slight ringing in my ears, and all of a sudden I felt super aware of all of my surroundings. I felt like everything was going in slow motion. I had a feeling to leave the airport and stay and extra night with my parents. I fought myself back and forth, but ultimately decided to leave. Something just didn’t feel right. Something was going to happen and it was bad.
I went back to my parents house and stayed in my old room, where I laid down in the dark for hours to try to get rid of this strange feeling. I had dozed off but didn’t get the chance to dream, as I was awoken by my mother knocking on my door to tell me that my grandpa on my dads side passed away.
I wasn’t as close to my grandpa, but despite that, I had a dream of him saying farewell, he was happy, not confused. He had dementia, and he couldn’t remember a thing in his waking life. However in my dream, he was exactly how I remember him.
I was talking to a friend last night about these strange “predictions” and she said that she thinks I might have psychic abilities. She said that sometimes as we grow to be in our 30’s as women, we experience our Saturn return, and it gives us insight on gifts that we have had since childhood but have been dormant. I have never thought of myself as psychic, as I didn’t know this was possible. But these strange occurrences have me questioning things.
Can someone please explain this? Am I just getting too ahead of myself or is there meaning behind all of this?
TL;DR: Things have been happening in the past few years that have lead me to believe I might have abilities?
