i’m struggling to come to terms with being a medium.

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this will probably be very convoluted—bear with me.

i (24f) have always known i’ve been sensitive to spirits and the paranormal. i found a true sense of purpose when communicating with spirits, during which i would use equipment such as dousing rods. i’ve always felt drawn to it and have wanted to understand what i didn’t know. i would go on paranormal investigations with my spouse and friends, and while they would feel “creeped out” i just never got that feeling. it just felt like i was having a normal conversation.

recently, i went to a medium in hopes that they could tell me why people in my life that have passed were trying to contact me in dreams, specifically ones that i wasn’t very close with. i also wanted to find out what was causing paranormal activity in my house (which is a home inherited by my spouse by a family member that passed).

disclaimer*** i’m very skeptical of mediums, and won’t just believe anything someone tells me just because they claim to be one. this medium i went to was too specific about certain family members that had passed to doubt their abilities.

during my reading, the medium looked at me in the beginning very intently and said “you’re not just sensitive, you’re a medium. your house has so much activity and these spirits are trying to contact you simply because they know they can communicate with you. they flock to you. i know you use equipment while doing investigations, but you really don’t need to, you can do it without any of that.” she seemed so worried that she gave me her personal phone number if i needed help, because “she didn’t have someone else there to help when she was going through the same thing.”

honestly, with as many experiences that i have had in the past, i can’t say i was too surprised. however, ive always tried to avoid communicating with any spirits or open that door in my own house because it just kind of scared me. so to learn that there are 4 spirits in my house, 2 of which was no relation to the house or my spouse and are just there because of me, was jarring.

the medium also informed me that being around people and absorbing their energy can feel very draining, like running a marathon. this tracks because i’m a bartender, and most of my life i feel incredibly emotionally drained, especially after work (more than i should).

i also started to realize some of the things i experience might not be universal. for example, sometimes when im relaxed and am not consuming any media (i usually have to listen to a podcast or audio book to sleep because my mind goes absolutely crazy if i don’t) i get these loud voices in my ear that sound as if their mouth is directly pressed against my ear. and when i say loud, i mean loud. and i understand people have inner monologues—this is different. the voices aren’t my own and it’s so loud that i’ll even flinch. and when i hear them, they come in blips, like only a few words. i totally get that this makes me sound absolutely insane.

i guess im just really worried about what this means and how to deal with it. from what the medium said, this will become stronger as i get older. i try not to open myself up to any negative energy but im scared to come to terms with the fact that this will always be a part of my life. i dont know whether i should push it away and close myself off for my own sanity, or to lean into it. are there any mediums that struggled with learning this about themselves? if so, how did you navigate this?

Discussion

[SimplyRedd333]

Hey sweetheart ✨🧿😊
First,let’s take a breath 🫁 I know it seems extremely overwhelming right now but it’s something that you have always known about yourself or had an inkling hence the paranormal investigations etc. I was born with the abilities and I have walked around with it wide open my whole life and even I can tell you it can get overwhelming

Yes,what the person told you is very true✨If you are spiritually open and have the ability to connect You are like high beams on a dark country road in the spirit realm. The same way you can see and hear them it goes both ways. Many don’t take that fact into consideration. So anywhere you move the ability will follow and so will the spirits. When you contact them even paranormal investigations you need to learn the discernment of energies so you can tell whether the entity means you harm etc. Over time you can tell , you’ll have triggers For example I can step foot on land and literally feel the energetic imprint left behind I get visions and i can sense the presence of things without even entering.
Over time as you use it , it will get stronger 💪 you have been using it awhile so that’s why you are able to do what you do. I didn’t know how my abilities worked when I was younger I just did things. I didn’t even know what I was doing was an ability lol I learned all that over time. So having a conversation for you is something natural but not everyone can do that right out the gate. That’s an ability you have and have been actively been honing without realizing it✨

Now here’s the thing I tell most people because I have seen both decisions and how they affect the person that made the decision. You can choose not to delve but remember it will always be a part of who you are. So if you aren’t going to use it then at least learn to put the safety on✨ Walking around open isn’t safe because you have to protect your energy because it will drain you and can affect you physically. As long as you continue to indulge your curiosity doing investigations etc you are actively putting yourself out there. They know that you are able and will actively attempt to engage.

Now if you choose to continue forward you are going to as I said above learn to discern types of energy, energetically you have to learn how to create barriers and you are definitely going to need to clear your house ( frankincense, myrrh tears, hyssop in a censor on a coal) open all your windows and doors and go from the back to the front of the house claiming your space and telling all the means you no good to go. As I said above I know it’s unnerving but you’ve already been using the ability unknowingly so technically it doesn’t change much. The difference here is that now you know. Now you can’t walk around open knowingly and if you look back I bet it answers some questions or changes perspective on certain things. Being mediumistic is an ability being an Active medium is a choice. So you just have to decide if this is the path you want to keep walking down and how far you want to go.
Things to learn ✨
Grounding
Energy discernment
How to trust yourself
Proper Cleaning techniques
Protection methods ( everyone’s are different)
I hope this helps some ✨🧿😊

[sassqueen6264]

Yes! Pretty much a similar journey to you in that way. You have to learn to discern and protect and energetically cleanse. Spirits, even people will flock to you. You need to be able to discern and have boundaries. Theres a great book i read : Managing Psychic Abilities by Mary Mulan Shutan, it has some great tools to discern and protect which i think given your gifts you need to learn. Shutting down abilities hasnt really worked for me, they just needed to be controlled for me to be functioning and not as drained and overwhelmed. Having a journal and visions would come, also letting go and not trying to be a control freak helped me too.

[Appropriate_Treat697]

Wow, I feel like I could have written this! I have been (and sort of still am) in the same boat. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s not something I can just ignore and pretend it’ll go away. I tried that, and then ended up with very messy energy and a bunch of spirits in my house. The energetic boundaries and maintenance seem absolutely crucial. If we don’t have those, we’re just gonna be bombarded, pushed around and affected by energies and spirits. And that doesn’t feel good at all. It makes me feel crazy.

Like someone said earlier, we don’t have to actively use the ability, but we do need to take care of ourselves regardless (having strong boundaries, clearing, house energy maintenance).

What’s difficult for me is I already have a hard time doing other regular “maintenance” on the physical level (like brushing teeth, drinking enough water,  and remembering to eat sometimes). So adding another routine to support my energetic health and hygiene feels so difficult! It’s hard to remember to do. But when I go through periods of not taking care of my energetic boundaries, I become a total mess lol. Seeing spirits in my house, interactions while falling asleep, hearing a voice or two, feeling generally ungrounded, hard to go out in the world, sort of disconnected from my own energy, etc…

So yeah, I hear you and see you! Having the ability just means we need to care for ourselves in extra ways that maybe others dont need to. And if you choose to actively use it, then awesome! It’d probably be good to seek out a teacher who can help you through managing it.

[lucid4you]

highly recommend looking into a professional that clears houses, normally going by a shaman title but can be called mediums, too. the spirits need to be crossed over and dealt with. after that’s done, you can start really working on putting up boundaries and preventing it from happening again.

[highspiritswow]

You can turn it off, if you’re meant to do it you will or just don’t, just ignore anything that comes to you. It’s not like in Ghost where they fill up rooms waiting to be seen or Ghost Whisperer where they turn up and demand you solve crimes 🤭