- Discussion
Every since I can’t remember I’ve been able to see, hear, and feel things, I think that’s why I have a lot of anxiety I can’t be in large rooms with lots of people because it’s too many feelings with all the living people in there plus the non-living, its loud because I can’t tell every person what every person’s dead person wants me to tell them and it’s exhausting I don’t know how to shut it off it’s so loud all the time everywhere I am even in my own house, also I avoid skin to skin contact with everyone because well people think it’s because I’m a germaphobe but I’m not, when I touch someone else’s skin I can see things and sometimes, no most of the time I don’t want to see any of it because sometimes what I see is horrible and truly horrific. I meditate and that helps sometimes but not always not when I feel chaotic not when the “gifts” control me then it’s like I’m stuck inside looking out with no control of what I see who/what i interact with and if I get angry well I brought someone whom was helping me learn control to his knees in pain.All my life I’ve had these, but it’s always the same dream for the most part. I can’t move and something is choking me and I know that’s like sleep paralysis but I don’t think sleep paralysis throws you down your halls(in the “dream”) or rip you off the bed, and I don’t think sleep paralysis makes you wake up finally with bruises on your neck arms and legs. Also while I’m in the dream I am screaming but no one in real life can hear me and if in my dream they do hear me they look at me with pure black eyes, they don’t move to help me they just stare. I’ve never seen the thing attacking me other then I know it’s heavy and has deep blue eyes and it wants to kill me. This happens pry 10 times out of the month more.