synchronicities, and study dowsing the universe for more complex understandable explanation.

[Mateo]

In studying dowsing synchronicities, I have noticed that while the universe does tend to help you, it seems to have a difficult time understanding you, though perhaps I am not getting what I need to understand from it.

In any event, it keeps repeatly putting me in a situation where my lack of community, resources and ability to curse or something seems to keep coming to a head. Perhaps that is the point? Its as if it wants me to be a tool with another aspect of collective consciousness, as if to make a point to its stupidity. Perhaps this is us becoming mutual users of each other?

Is cursing it perhaps a wrong idea since it implies a form of intelligence that otherwise isnt applicable?

How do I effectively make my own weaknesses understood by the universe as to not be exploited? I have frequently done with with regards to wealth hoarders, which unfortunately has made me something I have dreaded becoming and that is an information/gift hoarder. Eitherway however this one way street of where the beneficiary rivers flow needs to end, and my attempts at balancing it out seem to keep getting meet with a resistance that is malignent in nature. Perhaps there are effective ways at showing the real nature of their contemptable nature which they are oblivious too?

Then there is my bandalu(or deceitful spirit) problem, which has proven to be catalyst for only the most destructive energies at times, which are in part the result for what I have to do to innoculate myself to the world so I can be sane in it, which is effectively just “worshiping disgust”, which is also what appears to be what maligent energies feed off of to do their sort of self destructive tasks against me.

I dont know, I feel like I am at a loss for what to do with this situation. There is an over arching cycle of wagnerian style “ring cycles” with this sort of energy that are criminally incompetent in nature, which I am caught up in a manner that is best described as “why arabs lose wars” style of situation and ambiance with my sort of autistic psychic situation in the world.

Perhaps this is just my sensitivity to the modern world as it is. Though I am really at a loss of what to do with it since I can in no way thrive in it, get the community I need, or even just resources to effectively figure that out. If theres a point it wants to make, perhaps someone then can just point it out to me? The message I am getting from the world is that it hates me with a passion, but cannot do as much as it would like about it, so it does what it can.

Message from my inner self says I need to stay here, though the cycles of that and understanding why are making any and all alternative avenues to pull off that angle are being saught, though it seems to be costing me. ‘

I am not the best explainer, try and be more fluid then exact technical here. Feel free to say “it” even if it sounds weird, which is currently what I am doing.

Discussion

[privad]

The secret is that once you see it, the universe and what it wants are really quite simple. It’s impossible to forcefully open someone else’s eyes to this reality, though. You have to get there on your own.

[SuperfriendsK]

Are you talking about using a Pendulum to speak?