I have Venus mars uranus 8th house scorpio stellium. The last 3 years have been hell but not sure if it was cuz of pluto squaring my sun and still mercury or uranus squaring my aquarius moon which will end soon only to oppose my scorpio stellium eventually… Saturn conjunct my moon now and then will square my scorpio stellium. No rest for the weary. Transformation yes … Divorce, barely any friends left, but I’m authentic and not in a marriage where it was like having a roommate, but left in the ashes. My hopes and dreams are different because a lot of what I thought was not real and even though neptune is conjunct my pisces ascendant, i am not dreaming big. Just surviving at this point. I expect eventually things will improve but man it’s all been so brutal that i really ???? FEAR the upcoming Saturn square on my scorpio stellium. I hope i don’t die.