Why do my mother and I have a bad relationship?

[Illustrious_Hyena539]

Hi everyone, I know it seems I post here a lot, but I need help on one more thing: why do my mother and I have such a bad relationship? I posted this question on astrology subs and provided some charts, but I haven't gotten any responses, so I decided to do a reading on this. Basically the situation between me and my mother is that we fight almost everyday. As a child it was like this and it hasn't gotten any better, only now she can't push me around or punish me as I'm grown. I've tried to forgive her so many times and try to make our relationship work, but I literally cannot live in peace when around her; we click like oil and water, but I made some stupid fucking life choices over my career, so for now I just have to deal with her and live by her rules:

Anyway, I did my own spread for this. I used the Radiant RW tarot deck, which is a small and recolored version of the normal RW deck. I made two columns, the left one is me and my feelings on the question being asked, and the 2nd one is my mother and ber feelings. The last 3 cards at the bottom is speaking of general energy between us. I asked 3 distinct questions:

1. How do my mother and I feel about each other?
   • Me (Death rx): I feel stuck with her and we keep repeating the same cycles over and over. It's like beating a dead horse at this point, and I'm not hopeful that our relationship is irrecoverable. I feel emotionally detached.
   • Mother (Ace of Swords rx): My mom feels frustrated over me and like she can't communicate with me. She feels that nothing she says gets through to me and she's always having to fight with me. May feel exhausted and frustrated with me all the time?

2. Why do me and mother have so many conflicts?
   • Me (9 of Pentacles): I'm always trying to defend to her about the way I want to live my life and my choices (even the dumb ones) and beliefs.
   • Mother (Wheel of Fortune): She may be scared that I'm going to repeat the same mistakes she went through in life and is trying to stop me from doing that through the only way she knows how: fighting back.

Honestly this was the question that stumped me. The first two questions were easy, but I need help interpreting this one.

1. What will become of us in the future?
   • 3 of Cups: I think it means that we'll be continuing to fight.
   • Hanged Man rx: Not seeing eye to eye with each other
   • 2 of Swords rx: Needing to take breaks from the other person. We also keep shutting each other out?

So, what do y'all think about my interpretation? I'm most interested in what y'all have to say about the last question: is my relationship with my mother salvageable?

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