A Spirit is mad at me and I don’t know what to do

[Neville]

Hi
I will just jump into it!
I lost my grandmother about eight months ago.. The night that she died, my ex was in a large amount of discomfort and very sick. (He couldn’t breathe and his hear rate was extremely low- we were about to go to the ER) I went and sat with him. I thought to myself : “Take anyone but him. This isn’t his time. Please”
While touching his stomach, i felt as if a lightness came over me and heard “I hear you” from inside of me (not audible but in me – if that makes sense)
Not 5 minutes later I got a call from my dad saying my grandmother had passed away. She was recovering from COVID (no abnormal signs of anything being wrong) so it was a complete shock to us and the paramedics that she died so suddenly.
Anyways, I now will have intense sensations of guilt when my grandmother patches through to me. She doesn’t seem angry but very hurt. I told her I didn’t mean for her to die, I just wanted my ex to live. And I have no control of who dies and when they do.
She rarely patches through to me anymore since I told her that.
What should I do?

Discussion

[RicottaPuffs]

First of all, you did not make the choice of who lived and who passed. God makes those choices. He does not give that authority to us. As well, we have a choice unconsciously to die when we die, several days before our deaths. It was on no way, your fault or your decision.

You need to understand that your prayer did not make a choice for God, to decide between your boyfriend and your grandmother. You did not trade one life for another. That was never up to you, It was never your decision to make.

You prayed. He lived.

Your grandmother would not have relayed hurt after she transitioned. I hope by now, that she has transitioned.

I am more upset that you feel your grandmother tried to lay a guilt trip on you. She was a grandmother. She was never going to live forever. She was recovering from Covid19. Covid19, unfortunately, preys on weaknesses that our bodies have. There are side effects.

It is important to know that it was her decision and God’s not yours. You could not be two places at once. This sounds more like a trickster spirit than a grandmother. My grandmother would never have acted in that way. I do feel it was not your grandmother that gave you that guilt trip. IF it was, she needs a transition intervention, yesterday.

[UnsaltedButterfly]

If your grandmas spirit came through she would tell you to forgive yourself and to never blame yourself for something like this.

Whether it was your intention or not, she would not have ill feelings towards you if she was crossed over (and that means whatever you were talking to maybe wasn’t her and something sinister disguised as her spirit.)

This is quite common right now as the darkness is trying anything and everything to get prime real estate in a human body. They’re losing most of their energy sources and are really desperate.

[AnAnonymousHelp]

You didn’t kill your grandma and I doubt anyone is mad at you. Someone is trying to teach you a lesson for saying “take anyone else”. Learn with the guilt (as to not repeat the same mistake in the future) and let it go. Forgive yourself because the lesson was already learned. We all make mistakes. Once you forget all about this, you’ll likely be presented with the same lesson again to see if you truly learned, but you’ll be ready by then. Don’t let the feeling of guilt consume you because that is a door to not so nice things.

[TheSaltyTarot]

This sounds more like your own guilt than anything else. Could I ask about your process for “patching through”?