Accepting & Trying to Listen. Any help or advice is appreciated

[Shadow_Blinky]

I’ll make this as short as I can. I’ve always believed to some extent that I have psychic abilities, but the skeptic in me always fought against it, even when I had more reason to believe than doubt.

It stems from my mother, who’d say the same about herself. And there was reason to believe her. She once begged me to stay home on a specific date because she feared I’d be in some sort of accident. I ignored it and sure enough, I was in a car accident that totaled my car when someone rammed into me.

I’ve always had instincts about people and places, but sometimes events as well. Good and bad. I’d all too often dismiss uncomfortable feelings as paranoia or listening to people telling me I was too sensitive. But these “instincts” were always right in the end, without exception.

Last year I started to listen. How could I not?

A person who made themselves a pain in my behind for years started it. I’d told people for ages that I feared he was potentially violent and capable of hurting or killing someone… or himself. I got cast out of friendships for my stance on it. Last fall, he murdered his ex-girlfriend before turning the gun on himself… eight years after I first called it.

Then I felt compelled one night to seek out an obituary for my estranged mother, who as far as I knew was still alive. I found the obit, just two hours old.

I woke up one night, picturing that someone had left my small business a negative review. I went downstairs and no such review existed. Checked again five minutes later and there was one.

So I decided to start listening. And so far, every time has also got it right.

Woke up between 3-4 am two nights in the same week, feeling as if I was the subject of positive conversation by someone important to me. Found out two weeks later exactly what those conversations were.

Woke up another night feeling like my grandmother was ill. A message came in hours later telling me she was.

Woke up another night at 12:31am feeling as if she’s passed. Found out at 9am that she had. Time of death, 12:31am.

And these are just some examples. Woke up this morning picturing a business-related email. Came downstairs 5 minutes later and found that exact subject in an email… sent 5 minutes earlier.

I simply can’t doubt anymore that there’s more to this. I’d like to develop it… learn to listen to it more completely.

I seem to be more in tune with it as I sleep… but perhaps that’s because while sleeping I’m not subject to all the noise, distractions and other thoughts as I am during the day. I have noted a few days where I felt compelled suddenly to do something or not to do something that turned out to be the right decision… but these are far and few between compared to what I’ve experiencing while asleep.

I figured there would be some people here who might know where to guide me here.

For a more full profile… I’m the type who mostly keeps to himself but will occasionally make an instant friend with someone in fully opposite manners. Who gets overwhelmed in crowds and sometimes feel compelled to get out of them suddenly without any real explanation why. The kind of person who feels indifferent about most people, but can be suddenly drawn to or repelled from specific people in a vibe so strong that I can’t deny it.

Any advice is appreciated. I want to learn to listen more. Is there a way to do so?

Discussion

[hellapeachie]

Self doubt has been something I dealt with in the past. Your experiences are your truth, the ideas that were put into your mind are not.
What I did to counteract this was alot of affirmations + EFT, Reiki, meditation to calm the mind. Journaling is super useful in organizing your thoughts, understanding the root and finding a good approach.
As time goes and you experience intuitive hits and come to fruition GIVE YOURSELF PRAISE. The more you positively reinforce an active intuition the stronger it will become — in my experience atleast.
Good luck. Many blessings to you 💖

[lxknvlk]

I think best would be to commit to a magical development system that will teach you to control and develop your abilities even more.

I am aware of two such systems and you can get to know them in next books:

1. Initiation into Hermetics by Franz Bardon
2. Learning Ritual Magick by J.M.Greer

Both books have an evolving set of exercises that will open a new world for you. I suggest to check out them both and see what is closer to your and feels correct.

[Casehead]

Absolutely always listen to your gut feelings. The more you consciously use your gift, the stronger you will get at it.