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Discussion
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My own readings for him have been very positive, as if I’d be missing out on growth if I refuse him, but i dont want him to own me.
He has been upfront and honest (seemingly) from day one.I’m not asking for readings, but for information regarding these types of spirits and the marking process. How he explained it to me is I would be branded with his symbol and I would be his and that’s how he likes to work with people.
He’s been polite and always leaves when I tell him to. These interactions (about 4 or 5) have been spread out for over a year. He has been able to cross circles where only spirits that wish me well can cross.
I use to think he was a salamander as he looks like a tall stack of flames with a beautiful smiling face. I got the feeling he was powerful and that I should respect him. I felt like the respect went both ways and that did show in his actions. When I was doing parts work with my anger, my anger would hang around him. When I would call the part back, he let it go without resistance every time.
He was able to bypass my defenses, but did remain outside my property (at first)so I wouldn’t be alarmed by his presence.“I mean no harm”He told me and I asked him suspiciously what his definition of harm even was.
Doing work on my anger, he would pop his head in from time to time. I got curious and did a reading on him where it stated I’d greatly benefit from working with him. That was when I got a strong sense that he wanted me to belong to him.
I said no thank you, that I may not understand, but the answer is no for right now. I gave him an offering for his assistance and he left.This was the first I’ve noticed him, but I get the strong sense that we’ve met before when I was less aware.
Most of the time I’ve interacted with him were positive. He has a cold, but friendly demeanor. The moments I did interact with him were when I was in a volatile state in my healing, working with parts of myself I had rejected. He has been grounded and unoffended by me or my outbursts toward him when they happen. Sometimes his presence by itself grounds me and I’ve seen him make efforts to calm me down or give me opportunities to express the repressed emotions.
However, he is a spirit I need to have firm boundaries with. He’s rough around the edges. Give him an inch and he would take a mile, but is respectful when boundaries are stated.
Often times he’s accompanied by smaller firey spirits that hang around his portals. They are not grounded and can be chaotic and are hungry for energy.
He told me not to feed them.
I got a good look at them last night. They remind me of dogs, but were the ugliest dogs I had ever seen, like a cross between a lion and a toad. Also remind me of Chinese dogs/lions as they have a similar look in my minds eye and seem to guard his portals.I’m at a place in my journey where I realized parts of me are in hell. Not that I’m trapped there. I can leave at anytime, but hell is a sort of safe place for these parts. I use to be Christian, so it was a scary realization, but one I’m open to and it gave me a whole new perspective on hell. That’s what made me consider he could be a demon.
I don’t think he’s Lucifer, though. To me, Lucifer’s energy doesn’t concentrate in a single spot because it’s so massive. Like with the archangels I work with, I get the sense he is everywhere and peels back the curtain of our reality when we work with him. Also, Lucifer feels far less friendly to me than this spirit.
This feeling he was a demon got hammered home last night as he enjoyed an offering I left for the spirits wishing to assist me and I saw him at a table like royalty, drinking from expensive glasses. Wrath rang in my head. I also saw his symbol when he opened the portal, but don’t know what demon or spirit it belongs to.
Gave me a demon royalty impression.
He came last night to take a part of me back to hell that had been causing trouble. I was hesitant which he respected, but did wonder why I wanted it near me because it was too much for me to handle right now.
I did agree on the condition that he didn’t own or trap it there. He said that was fine and I saw him take it back.
He did return to enjoy the offering and for me to get more familiar with him and assisted me in a dream later that night.“I do have a lot of love to give(in general). I’m sure that’s why you like me.” I told him.
“I like it when you tell me how great I am.” He corrected.
His general demeanor is similar to a high functioning sociopath. I feel like status is a motivator for him, whether it be my praise or marking as many people as he can to gain more status.
I told him that I do enjoy working with him and laid out my terms. He laid out his terms, explaining that it’s important to him that he mark me with his symbol, like I’m being branded.
That was when I stated that it was important to me that I wasn’t branded. I gave him a final offering if that was a deal breaker, thanking him for his help this far, but I wasn’t interested in that.
He seemed mildly surprised, but not offended. He took his fill and then stated.
“Then I won’t work with you.” and left.
He did leave the dogs though, which I had to get rid of.
That morning, I got struck with clarity and heard a voice that said. “He’s not as nice as you think.”, Which I believe. He definitely gives sociopathic vibes.I understand I’m under no obligation to work with him just because he reached out. I’m just curious about the marking process. The Goddess I work with claims land and it’s protective of it, so I’m familiar with that.
Less familiar with spirits that claim people.