-
Discussion
-
I have a ghost that haunts or lives in my home, I believe he died on the land since the house was new. He follows me around and now that I’m older his presence is starting to feel unrecognizable… like standing next to a sibling or a parental figure. He’s like a dog when I get home from work, like I got him tied up on a leash, making him follow me.
I’m an attractive young woman, or so I believe I am. I’ve been complimented by lots of people, by the why I look, my eyes, my hair, my face, my body, my voice, and even my laugh.
I’ve had guys flirt with me, and even some women. But I’ve never dated anyone in my entire life. I’m open for a relationship and when someone gives any sort of interest, even the most obvious ones… I act like I always do but add a bit of flirtation back whenever they do it first.But then nothing… The next day they show no interest, don’t even bother to glace at me.
Do I have a jealous ghost or am I just unlovable?
I’ve been told I’m a bit hard to approach because I have this confident vibes. Not sure how when I’m always thinking about what I’m going to eat, when can I go home, or when my favorite YouTube or wattpad author will post. I’m an introvert and like to keep to myself, but I’d like to keep to myself with another person.
I know it might be rude or shallow, and please believe that I’m not a judgmental person or anyone who could hold hate to anyone, and when I do hate someone I usually forget in the next few days. But when I see women who’s beautiful to my eyes… but less attractive in the strange standards we have, I can’t help but feel jealous of them. “How is it that they can get a relationship, but I cant?”
I had a guy show interest for a few days, always obvious about his intentions, flirting, touching… y’know the basics. He even was planing on asking me out in the few days. And when I told my sister in (our house with the ghost nearby) the boy who had the hots for me like a loyal little pup suddenly had no interest, wouldn’t even look at me.
And because of this I feel as though I’m unattractive, the compliments I get from both men and women. Just goes through one ear and out the next.
Am I just depressed and lonely or is the ghost to blame… or am I just crazy.
Or maybe I shouldn’t have even posted this at all.