Death is surrounding me and I don’t know what to do or how to handle it

[Neville]

I feel like death is surrounding me and I don’t know why. Ever since I was young I would hear and see spirits. My earliest memory was talking to a spirit and believing they were an angel. I’ve even had people tell me I’m a magnet to them. As I grew older I was hospitalized many times, labeled psychotic, put on tons of meds and learned to close that side of me.

About a month ago I almost died, I also had stopped taking me meds a few months prior to that. I’m not sure why but this seemed to reawaken things. My grandma died today from covid and two other family members are also dying. On top of this the thought of my ex who killed himself a long time ago keeps popping into my mind. I have also been on and off very suicidal.

I don’t know why but it just seems like death is surrounding me. I can’t seem to shake it after that night and surprisingly it doesn’t freak me out. I’m sensing a spirit following me too, watching me. I haven’t tried reaching out to it yet and I’m not sure if I should.

I think they may be wanting to pass on a message because I’ve been feeling like I should be receiving them. I used to get premonitions through dreams but again I learned to block them. Now though I feel like I’ve been getting them just not ‘receiving’ them. Something big is about to happen soon and I don’t know what it is. Maybe I’m going to die soon? Oof I just got a flash of a demonic face and now hearing thumps…

Sorry if this all sounds insane. It’s just mainly me rambling my thoughts that I needed to get out.

Discussion

[AuraeSuperi]

My mother has this ability, she describes it as being a beacon. Depending on the energy you are giving off dark or light entities will come to you.

For example negativity and fear could attract shadow beings (most of the time they just watch but sometimes cause supernatural activity) while positivity could attract guides or near celestial beings, I would recommend never trusting them fully though, as it is often entities will lie to gain your trust.

For now I recommend you try to gain back your life through meditation, do hobbies and things you enjoy and see if you can find (and join) something of a trust worthy coven who will help you get back on track

[c-shadrach]

Hi!

Seems like the message may be for you – and it may be for you to take care of yourself. Like, fully and thoroughly take care of yourself.

And anything that is full of love and hope and light – Angels, guides, loved ones – will never give you negative feelings or negative premonitions. I believe that you may be submerged in a dark surrounding in your life. Which doesn’t mean that people are negative around you or anything like that, it can literally mean that negative energies have surrounded you and seen that they can stress you through spiritual means. Like an annoying bully, really.

Surround yourself with lots of white light, as much and as often as you can. Find a religion or spiritual path that brings you comfort. For some it’s God for others, it’s finding a spiritual community that promotes peace and light and love.

Also, I feel like the ex visiting and the spirit around you is him. And the message he is trying to get to you is that you must take care of your overall health.

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My personal thoughts – find some kind of mental health professional. I personally, didn’t want to take any Medication for sever anxiety, so I sought alternative treatments like Cognitive Behavioral Training (CBT) and breathing exercises via a special program. I hope this is helpful and not condescending — I have been in your shoes and it’s not something to walk alone. And lucky for you, you have some wonderful loved ones on the otherside wanting to walk your path with you – you’re not alone in your challenges along your path. <3

[RicottaPuffs]

I am so sorry for your loss. When you are in a place where the grief abates, reread these comments.

What you attract depends on what you allow. If you want your life to be a “Dark Room”, like Lydia in Beetlejuice, that is what you will attract.

It is not healthy to become so involved with the ideas surrounding physical death that you do not live properly.

As many times a day as you need it. Ground, center and shield. Refocus on the positive if only for seconds and block out the negative. It can be done. Resolve to do it, alright?

Youtu.be has some of the best meditation, calming and shielding vids out there. They have great relaxation vids, too.

I hope you read this far. What you allow, is what surrounds you. Send them away. Spirit is not what happens to you. Spirit is what you allow. Spirit is what you allow. So don’t allow the negative.

I hope for healing for you and your family. Good journey to you

[RicottaPuffs]

Fearing death immediately following the death of a relative is not uncommon. Panic is not uncommon.

Please speak to your doctor or a counselor about these feelings. You need a neutral party to help you through this.