Entering my 23 profection year

[Jessica]

I’m turning 23 and I’m trying to learn more about myself personally so that I can excel when it comes to astrology because I find that I genuinely enjoy educating people when they ask me questions about it the subject.

Would anyone care to share about their experiences of 12th house profection years and/or any advice regarding them? Also if you have the same as me? Capricorn 12th ruled by saturn.

Discussion

[twicecolored]

I’m in mine right now, but am 35 so slightly different perhaps. My 12th is ruled by scorpio and thus the time lord is mars, though I have Saturn in 12th as well.

Once it started I got the biggest urge to delete all my social media (for my mental health) which I hadn’t been off of for years, got more into my art therapy, just recently got rid of a huge amount of junk and clothes I’d been hanging onto for god knows how long (like 15+ years type of stuff), started doing new forms of art I haven’t done before, got off of medication I’d been on the past 2 years and didn’t really require…

…all while feeling like I literally fell off the face of the earth lol, in terms of being present in others’ lives via the simulacrum that is the internet and also with having others constantly in my face and head space (couldn’t tolerate it and felt super susceptible and absorbent to others’ “noise”). Gave myself that needed solitude from the world as I was having a sudden hard time with psychic boundaries. Have been at home a lot living and doing for myself, getting rid of a lot of unnecessaries (including toxic friends, toxic societal/industry attitudes I was subjected to, and others’ unfair expectations of me) and working on healing trauma that’s severely plagued me since I was 19.

I even have made an art wall in my room now, which I’ve never had before despite having gone to art school and being known for my creativity. All pieces I’ve done for it are super abstract chaotic, bold and uncontained. I feel my Saturn, and timelord mars I guess, have been working to ironically give me much more outward structure and drive toward those 12th H things that are hard to explain.

Yeah. So, good and bad, painful but peaceful, hard time with boundaries so have over-enacted them (some *very* necessarily), many things including my old sense of overly-traumatised self have been dissolving (totally getting me ready for my 1st house year), I can literally only stand to do art that “doesn’t mean anything” (stuff that requires no thought/planning) yet means everything at the same time. Also been questioning my gender and sexuality a lot as I don’t have a very clear sense of myself atm. Things concerning my self feel *very* confusing and amorphous. Reminiscent of my natal Neptune in first house.

Idk. If you can get to any art/creative activity, it can be a very interesting year to try weird nonsensical abstract things. But much of it is just things dissolving that need to be dissolved and let go of. Sometimes difficult but in other ways very freeing and whole.