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Discussion
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Sorry this is going to be long but I kind of have to explain it this way so that you guys can understand why I don’t seem to understand why it’s happening. I’ve read many posts here and I can see a lot of you are quite tuned in to your gifts and understand the signs you receive.
Background:
As far as I know 3 generations of women on my mother’s side have various gifts, but my mother and myself were raised by my grandmother to just accept it as it is and to ignore it if we don’t want to use it. Only my grandmother practised some kind of healing rituals for the sick that I (unfortunately) never learned and my mother would occasionally dabble in communicating with spirits when she is in dire need of guidance. On this side of the family men can also see or feel spirits (good and bad). Thus, it’s no biggie during any family gathering that a topic of conversation would, for example, turn to my long dead grandfather giving one of my uncles an earful for not doing something. Of course as a child and teenager this was a big deal to me, I felt both scared and special among my friends. But I have grown out of that since and being raised in a family that just takes these unusual talents for granted, I never took the time to study what I have or strengthen it or kept energies pure or anything like that. Basically, just use it like anyone would use their other five senses.However, I still take note of some experiences that I especially find odd bec they might signal bad events – either personal or major world events that would hit close to home. By major, I would for example suddenly wake up to a day where everything is in sepia and sounds are muted, and there is a sense of chaos even though people around me are just calmly going about their day. It’s happened in 2004, day of the Asian tsunami and in 2011 during the Japanese tsunami. That 2011 event also had me getting really antsy in the office around 2 pm (tsunami happened around 2 45pm) and wanting to run. At that time I lived in the Southern Pacific area, and while these events never reached the country I was living in, we were pretty close by. That sepia vision and muting of sounds also seem to happen when a spirit is close by. I’m sure there were other events that I sensed but probably failed to take note of bec of some drama in my life or I was buried in work.
So now, on to more recent events:
In 2019, around May and June, I had constant dreams of people running and yelling, general chaos basically, with the sky in sepia. In that dream I was always trying to run away from something with my 2 kids. When I wake up from this dream, that noise of chaos follows me into the waking world for several seconds that have me disoriented and unable to tell if I was still dreaming. Now bec I was raised to ignore these things, I ignored the dreams even when I worried about them at the back of my head. What took my attention however is that I would often find myself staring at the utility room of our condo and planning in my head what to stock up in there, I would go around the condo and imagine how to keep infectious air out – close vents, ensure the tempered glass are seal tight etc. The other thing was the constant need to leave the country before January 2020. Like it was a deadline I needed to keep if I was to keep my family safe. I’m not a prepper mind you, but I do watch a lot of movies and the scenario in my head was zombie apocalypse, haha! Anyway, we left the country in late June and those dreams did not follow me into the country where we are now. I started hearing COVID had hit the country we left in December and the country we’re living in went into lockdown in late Feb 2020, refusing all international flights entry.Last week, the dreams started again, no sepia but just a general sense of chaos. However, I have more of that waking type of noise from the dream – people talking and this time, music playing. I don’t sleep early, usually around 2-3 am, and this noise happens around that time. I would be watching a movie in Netflix and realise I am hearing more noise around me than what’s on my phone. Now we live in a newly built house in a new and quiet suburb. I’ve never sensed spirits here except twice – and they were ones that I “know”, the first one shows up to check on me whenever I’m in a new country, the other one came around when I had a really bad bladder infection I didn’t know about, he shook me out of a dream pointing at my belly and yelling at me about something. I consider these spirits guardians (3 in total, possibly relatives) and they sometimes figure in my dreams. I have never really understood whatever they’re saying, most of the realisation that they are trying to help happens only after the fact. But they haven’t shown up at all lately.
My recent dreams have a feeling of dread together with the chaos but I can’t, as with my other dreams, figure anything out. There are no silhouettes of people close by, just people seemingly far and running about. And I’m disturbed that I hear this constant noise (like the din you hear when you’re in a bar) every night before I go to bed and when I wake up from a dream.
Can anyone give me some guidance about this? I’ve experienced this waking noise before but it was more of people talking and this was a long long time ago when I was in a personal crisis. Is there any symbolism I should be aware about regarding these noises? Why are they happening at a waking state? If the world was not such a mess right now I would have chucked it off to something personal bothering me but I want to start learning now bec I kind of feel that we’re just at the beginning of something more challenging to humankind.
Thank you in advance and sorry for the long post. This is really the first time I’ve written about this talent or gift or skill or sense. Whatever it is. And there is a lot to unpack. I have only talked about it to a handful of people I’m very close to and who I feel would take me seriously and not think of me as a weirdo.
