How to heal from ego death and regain yourself

[Mel_AndCholy]

I’m going to post this question in a metaphysical and psychological threads, because both tie in here.

I’ve encountered trauma induced ego death and self erasure multiple times in my life. These aren’t drug induced, but if you have tips on recovering from psychedelic-related ego death recovery, I’m willing to learn.

While I think that I wouldn’t be the beacon of light I am to people, or have come as far as I have metaphysically without losing my sense of self, I don’t feel like the pain is doing me anymore favors. I’m out of balance.

A lot of my anger comes from not tending to my self. This is hindering my growth as a person. While, I don’t last out at others, I lash inwards.

Have you worked with clients who have lost this sense of self, or what have you learned by regaining your own?

This is not a request for readings. I can do my own, but I would like advice.

Discussion

[saltymystic]

I basically did mental brain surgery. I went in to all the spots where there was pain and opened it. I was still checking in with my therapist, so we’d discuss what I was experiencing. I’d take that and go back in and rebuild with forgiveness, and as hokey as it sounds, love and kindness. I also found that even with the feeling of ego death, there was something all the way in the back holding my unfiltered beliefs. I found out later it was called shadow work. I wasn’t meditating constantly, about once a week for as long as it took to repair the damage that was there. Other people noticed the difference in me before I did.

[redemption_songs]

I experienced a deep, trauma induced ego death and rebuilding was very difficult. I eventually descended into depersonalization and derealization and it was very scary. The start of my progress toward healing came from a journey with a psychedelic medicine (5-MeO-dmt. During the experience source was very clear that I was not a mistake, that I was love and that since my pain had already occurred, the only way to make it useful was to heal and help others through love. It planted a seed in me- I had an opportunity to leave the things that no longer served me behind and find the shards of what was left and explore and nurture them.

Starting from square one can be a gift. I wanted to try to reconnect with positive memories so I decided to do a collage project. I gathered books and magazines and flipped through them, tearing pages that interested me and cutting out images for my art. I’d like something, say a bird and cut it out. I’d think about why I liked it. The color reminded me of the color of my grandmas couch that I used to sleep on. Great. I’d allow my mind to wander to other positive associations and memories and thank source for those little pieces and glimpses of me. Sometimes I’d be flipping through a book and start to read it, then get interested in a topic. I discovered that wonder is a beautiful thing. I dove into my personal spirituality, started to garden and make friends. My life just… came back piece by piece better than it ever was.

I’m not saying this to brag, more so to say that I understand the place of hopelessness and self neglect and that you can do this ❤️

[No-Track-2633]

Try to practice self love and being more gentle to yourself. Maybe invest in some rose quartz. By being gentle with yourself and acknowledging how far you’ve come, try to fall in love with yourself. I was told by a psychic not too long ago that when we are babies we are just love. Just loving. But as we grow, the ego starts to develop. Now that you basically have little to no ego now. Love is all that needs to come out. Learn to be more compassionate to yourself and you shall be compassionate towards others as well as a result.

[imgoinglobal]

As of right now, what do you feel are the bounds of your self?