I genuinely don’t know what to title this… Experience/Asking for advice/Rant type thing?

[Nicolina]

Hi. This is my first contribution to this subreddit and I hope this is the right place to put this out there.

Disclaimer: this’ll probably be reasonably long and relatively muddled though I’ll try to lay it out as clear as I can. Bear with me.

A bit of background first. I’ve always been weird; interested in things either taboo, reasonably unknown, dangerous, or deadly. Even what I’ve centered my journalism career on (motorsport) has taken hundreds, if not thousands of lives over the years. I’ve always had a keen interest in natural disasters and natural things that cause death, and hold massive disdain and hatred towards people who willingly kill others for the sake of it.

Despite this, I have little care for humanity as a whole and prefer to respect individuals when I meet them over the whole human race. I’ve always been interested in the paranormal too. It’s likely none of what I just said matters but I’ve put it there just in case it does.

I’ve recently got really into reading about mythology, religions associated with them, and suchlike. Greek Mythology has always been a subject that really stood out to me because I’ve always found the gods and their structure make so much sense. So I went researching how to make contact with said Gods and found a few sources saying to write a letter and burn it. Now, my family has always been deeply curious about things similar to what I said and my grandmother actually went to a medium many years ago who immediately said she had a very powerful aura and joked they should swap places. My mother has always been able to predict how the weather will unfold better than the meteorologists and I’ve always had a knack for precognition (I felt the Sri Lanka attacks, Swan River plane crash, Ukraine flight 782, and January 6’s atrocities coming in the weeks and months before they happened, though it didn’t take a genius to know a coup was coming).

Anyway, I wrote this letter and sent it off, it was just a greeting letter pretty much, and I went to sleep for the night not long after. I woke up the next morning a lot earlier than I usually would (5 am compared to 9 am) and I felt completely different. I don’t know why but everything just felt more in place, I’ve had more energy despite the fact I’ve been eating and sleeping less in the days since, I’ve been able to do more, but I have had a very, very mild, dull headache predominantly on my right side since.

I think I’ve been sent signs as well recently, my YouTube recommended is filled with “How to Lucid Dream” videos despite the fact I’ve never looked into them before.

Whatever’s happened I’m not complaining, but I’d love if anyone on here had any idea at all as to what’s happened. Thanks so much for taking the time to read all of this too by the way, and I again apologize if this was hard to follow. ????

EDIT: one of the main things I was going to put here completely slipped my mind. Since then I’ve also been feeling like I’d like to die but not in a suicidal way. I want to know what being dead is like, and its a feeling I haven’t experienced before because I’m satisfied and content with my life. It’s not something I’ll act on but its a curiosity I’ve had since that day.

Discussion

[lornawhore]

It sounds like the beginning of a spiritual awakening, and the lucid dreaming video suggestions are likely a sign. From the universe, a deity, who knows? But the sign is clear. Work on lucid dreaming. Once you get the hang of it, you’ll find out why you were nudged that direction.

Blessed be, good luck, and I’ll drop the best, simplest advice I have, pertaining to spiritual ANYTHING:

Don’t overthink it. If it feels like it’s more than it is, IT IS. Trust in what your spirit is telling you and you’ll know the right thing to do.

[Kay1ea]

Your post is really compelling, and I’d agree on it being some sort of spiritual awakening. The only thing I would say, is with the Youtube video suggestions, they can predict the types of things you may be interested in, and the ways in which they do this can be very clever. I had a boat building video suggestion after being interested in having one built, but I hadn’t typed anything boat related. I had liked a lost on Facebook which was on the page of a coffee shop I had visited on holiday next to a harbour, and I’ve since found out that some business share customers details with Facebook (my husband actually discovered this first) and there is a tab on FB showing which organisations and business have shared your details. That can then easily get filtered through into Google as I found, when I searched the coffee shop’s Facebook page via Google…and of course Google owns YouTube. So I’m guessing harbour/boat related stuff was filtered through and that’s why the boat building video was suggested by YouTube.

Similarly, I have looked at moon and stars themed jewellery online, and had suggestions about crystals and tarot reading tutorials on Youtube. I’ve been reading tarot for 30 years but never ever searched online for anything Tarot related. I also have books about crystals and some of my own crystals, but again, I have never looked online for them. This was all even before I joined Reddit and this sub. I’m guessing that the type of jewellery that I looked at online got filtered through to youtube, and it was used as a means to look at what else may interest me. Amazon is another good example of how they use very clever predictive technology to predict what you might be interested in buying, even when you haven’t searched for anything remotely similar, as far as you are concerned. I often go on there and something comes up, and I think, how on earth did they know I needed to get that?! It’s clever stuff but that’s how they work. So it is possible that your suggested videos are just a result of this kind of predictive technology, as a result from something somewhere having got filtered through to your youtube account via Google.
Edit: I notice one of your previous comments in a different sub mentions Celtic music. Youtube may have used that as a related predictor to the lucid dream video perhaps. Celtic music often being seen as a spiritual type of music, and associated with legends, and mystical and new age themes, etc..