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Discussion
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TW SUICIDE OF LOVED ONE
I am terrible with how to organize many pieces to these things so apologizing in advance! I’ve really tuning back into myself, since “turning it off” a few years ago. I had made a post here previously about some negative things I was experiencing and why. I’ve been really trying to understand messages that I wasn’t paying attention to previously, specifically that I have aphantasia. EXCEPT I get these random weeks on end where no matter how hard I try I cannot sleep when I close my eyes. For hours, I lose track of the fast passing time, but not enough that I’m “sleeping” I periodically roll over to see the time. And I have images, unclear but there. Which like ???!! I can’t see anything ever no matter how hard I try. I experience the other 3 big clairs regularly. So maybe this is another one trying to come through but I’m not sure because I don’t even experience this on a regular level, let alone an elevated one.
But I was thinking if it is, right now would be a relevant time. I had a very close friend pass of suicide 7 months ago, gunshot wound so he’s probably not crossing over well despite my attempts to help, and his birthday is a week away. Maybe he is trying to send a message to me?
Is there any advice on how I could better receive this message? I obviously practice tarot but I don’t know what kind of spread I would do for this as I usually don’t contact anything I just use it for general divination. I used ouija VERY frequent when I was younger and stopped (also posted about that previously). I believe in capable of channeling whatever it is, I just am not sure where to start.