It hurts so much to be hurt by a fellow woman

[lonelysof]

I’ve always been used to being deceived by men. Whatever. But like. Being deceived by your blood sister? By someone who has literally seen you in your worst vulnerability? By someone who you’ve loved with the purest form of love? It hurts so much.

My friends abandoned me and now they’re like hanging out with my ex. Funny. But I hate their need to prove me they’re “better” than me or they “kept the prize” when I literally don’t care. All I cared about was making amends with them because I cared about them. Patriarchy really makes us believe we have to compete even with our blood sisters.

So I did a little something yesterday. I did the candle-cord ritual last night so the love I have for them can’t hurt me anymore. And today I woke up feeling SICK, every inch of my body hurts so so so much. I feel like when I had covid prior this year.

This is kind of a rant and a show off of my ritual. This is how it turned out.

Discussion

[reclaimingmytime]

I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I went through a falling out with a friend group a few years ago and I think as a society, we don’t give enough weight to how painful that is.

It also sounds like they didn’t deserve your friendship. May you find people who enrich your life and are as thrilled to find you as you are to find them. May your friends always be true. May your ex stub his toe every day for the rest of his life.