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Let’s Talk About Black Moon Lilith
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What does black moon Lilith represent? I thought it represented sex and the unknown, unconscious thoughts? How does it present itself?
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It’s conjunct my ASC in Scorpio although I prefer Ophichius. I am a bit like Ophichius in nature and identity more neutral although I’m male and hetero. I do resonate with women’s issues rejecting patriarchal religions and inequality. It’s sexually speaking that I identify with it. I have always been hard wired and completely unable to have casual sex. I was a virgin when I married at 33. I was faithful for the 28 years and when we divorced I never bothered to try to find a replacement and won’t. I think this aspect partly contributed to that but I also have Vesta conjunct Sun and Mars closely in Leo so it could be that too. I will add it was conjunct my ex’s Lilith too.
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Lilith in 8th house cancer not fun.
I don’t even know where to start.
I guess growing up with single mother who was depressed and worked 2 jobs. Wasn’t around so basically raised myself. Told me to go to my room. Never communicated. Ignored all the emotional needs of my siblings and I. According to doctors that was neglect. My mom used the jobs to avoid us even though she loved us.
Depression from shitty childhood turned into sex, drugs, and alcohol. I have a hard time trusting people and sex has always been emotionally painful for me bc I would have sex with people I didn’t know. Put me in a cycle. I was lonely and looking for affection in the worst ways.
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BLM in Cancer in the 9th House. Don’t know how exactly she affects the House, but I have noticed the Lilith square Libra Ascendant aspect throughout my life. Men have always had a disgustingly intense fixation on me since I was little, so I alienated myself from the feminine by dressing and acting in ways that were hyper masculine to be safe. That, and my mom also shamed that side of me, partially to keep me safe and partially out of competitive control. She was a Sagittarius and Sagittarian women have generally geared stereotypical female cattiness towards me, so that might be where the 9th House is involved. It wasn’t until I was 20 that I slowly began integrating my feminine side. Because Lilith is in Cancer, I also noticed that when I finally started dating, there was always this sick, toxic need from men to possess, control, and be mothered. They always had a nonexistent to shitty relationship with their mothers, so an obvious Oedipal complex. It’s only been the past 3 days that I’ve understood all these things came from this placement.
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I have a 1st house aries lilith. I’ve always been bullied for simply existing and many people tend to either hate me or obsess over me in an unhealthy way. It’s made it hard for me to make friends or get into relationships as I seem to attract people who have bad intentions and want to take advantage of me. Every time I get close to someone, I get take. advantaged of and abused, which results in me having trust issues. Not to mention older people have been sexualizing me since a young age. I’m 20 now and still get sexualized over older people, mostly men that are like 30+. I’m also very insecure about my body and hard on myself about it, and my libra stellium and Taurus moon don’t seem to help since my air sun + earth moon combo is heavily into appearances. I also grew up in a family that lacks emotional connection and my relationship with my mom is and bc she’s always trying to manipulate me. My relationship with my dad is very distant due to him always putting his anger out on me when I was younger, and I’m currently trying to distance myself from my brother as he seems to hit me all the time for no reason and abuse me mentally, and take advantage of me as well. And through all this that has happened, I come off as over independent to people bc I feel that I can’t ask for help or I’ll be screwed over in any way
