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Discussion
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Last summer I had a powerful premonition that I was going to die soon after moving into the condo I had just purchased, and that it would be the last place I ever lived. It was like a series of images of my neighborhood mixed with this sense of “knowing” as if I was in the future and experiencing my death. I’ve had other precognitive experiences before but nothing about my own death. Long story short, I was just diagnosed with an unruptured aneurysm due to a genetic condition. I wouldn’t have been diagnosed if I hadn’t felt like something was wrong, gone to the ER several times (once I told them I thought I had an aneurysm, because I had started thinking obsessively about someone I knew a long time ago who died of an aneurysm, and so I looked up aneurysms and started worrying about symptoms). I thought it was an abdominal aneurysm because my grandfather had one years ago, they ruled that out and wrote that it was psychosomatic. A few weeks later I had Covid with chest pain, went to the ER, and they found the aortic aneurysm.
Now that I’ve seen specialists and am being monitored for changes and possible surgical intervention, my anxiety is gone and I feel this weird sense of calm/relief. I’ve always thought I would die around my early 40s. I had childhood trauma including some kind of NDEs, so I attributed it to PTSD since having a foreshortened sense of the future is a symptom. My 30s were terrible in part because I wasn’t accomplishing what I wanted to accomplish before I die, and I felt like time was running out. Now I feel like this sensation that has haunted me most of my life is validated, I got help, and I don’t need to worry about it anymore (either the doctors can help, or I’ll be really unlucky and it’ll kill me, but medically my chances are good since it was caught so early).
Maybe it’s as simple as having a very intuitive sense of what’s going on in my own body, but it’s been a strange journey. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?
