Hi there. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. I lost my boyfriend as well. I recommend Medium Apryl Nicole. I booked a reading with her last year and she changed my life. She was so detailed and knew things that nobody could’ve ever known other than myself. She brought me comfort that I never thought I could find. A completely surreal experience. She’s not in the New Jersey area, but you can book a reading with her via zoom. Booking a reading with her is pricier, but she gave me a gift worth way more than I ever can repay her. Sending love your direction.