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Discussion
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Hey guys … Long story short: I used to excel at _self love_ once, but as I’m currently finding out more about me, after I’ve noticed some things going wrong in my life I decided to ask some questions to the other side… Summing-up: I discovered that I’m in a karmic incarnation…. Everything was so colourful once.. but now I guess I’m paying for all the harm I did to others…
After I found out the many things about evil and negative stuff I did and do, I start purging what I could… But now I just feel disgust of myself…. I’m having trouble eating, I even lost weight, and often I want to throw up… Having strong headaches, occasional pain in the stomach, weakness…. But I need to see how bad-blooded I am… This is hurting, but I need to accept that I’m despicable and how baneful I am….
Yes, went to the doctor, there was nothing, so it’s all effects of the process I myself started … Just need to deal with it..
I am doing some self-hypnosis, to make me believe I’m far from a good person, and to make me see all the negativity onto me…. I need to have more forces to go through it…
Sorry, just needed to vent… Wish me luck, if you will…
Edit: I’ve taken a glass of water this morning, and I couldn’t believe how good the taste was…. I know it’s not of anyone’s business… I guess I need a diary