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Discussion
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I’ll start this off with saying that I’m one of the baby witches that fell victim to witchtok and thinking every random leaf that fell in front of me was a spiritual sign. For the past 6/7 months I’ve been going back and forth with the ideals/practices I picked up while figuring out what spiritual path I want to go down, and during that time I happened to pick up witchcraft and deity worship. Fast forward maybe a month ago and I decided to take a break because of all the spells I cast, meditations I did, offerings I gave to deities, and even some information I read about in witch-related books I felt like it was getting me nowhere and maybe I was doing something wrong. Currently, I’m still sort of confused, but I’ve also been sort of clearing my mind on what I think is spiritual and what is not, and just a couple weeks ago not only did I see three crows standing together while I was on my way to church (only because I still live with my mother, Christianity has never really clicked with me), but I also saw a black cat cross the road (which could just be a mundane event, but the three crows did throw me off a bit).
Fast forward again to now, and I’m wanting to pick it back up because I feel like now I’m more in touch with reality to where I can discern what’s really spiritual and what’s not, I’ve focused on myself more because I realized witchcraft/spirituality was taking over my mundane activities, and even now I’m sort of nervous about getting back into it because I don’t want to be delusional about everything like I used to.
I also feel like I should start over my relationship with my deities (for reference I worship Hecate, Hades, and Eos), but I’m not sure how to approach it because, besides giving offerings, I haven’t done much more regarding their worship. I’m not even sure if they’re still the right deities for me, and I don’t want to be delusional and assume every deity I want to worship also wants to work with me. I’m really just looking for some direction/other’s experience on how they came back from a long (but much needed) break from their practice, especially when it comes to deity worship and spell work (past me hadn’t done ANY protection spells for myself and trust me, I still mentally scold myself for it).