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Discussion
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Tl:dr today I have decided I definitely need to move. I know it’s lunar eclipse but wondering if big decisions are okay to make right now? I have 15years worth of stuff to move and no car so it will take a few months but I am doing it- advice please?
Is there anything that can help me move forward without being so chained to the past/“family”?
So I’ve been wanting to move to another city over a decade. I have been basically my mom’s (and was my abusive dads)caretaker for 20 years but she is cold to me and I have allowed her to isolate me from everything. My sister is very very very cruel. Now she has moved into my moms apartment and controls everything, uses her credit card, literally answers her phone and even changed my moms damn voicemail and used her own voice. Tonight was a last straw for me.
I have a feeling I know what my sister is planning-essentially taking my mom’s money/stuff-shes the executor of the trust. I worry for my mom, but I need to worry for myself and my future now.
I lent my other parent close to 50,000 years ago that basically went to my sister for grad school. Now she has decided not to work to just live off my mom even though she has a physicians assistant degree and can make nearly 200,000 in the area I live. Anyways, I was promised it back never got it back.I have been financially dependent on my mom bc I couldn’t get a job whilst caretaking-so now I have a horrible resume, no money and no friends or social network.
I did this to myself I don’t blame anyone. I knew they were toxic but my lifelong desperation to be close to my family allowed me to be manipulated, abused and left to rot basically.
So anyways I have decided I must move.
I get that it may not be financially smart but literally 20 years of my life (since I was 10) has gone by by staying for “logical” reasons.
I want to live my life, be financially independent and as much as it breaks my heart leaving my mom with my sister who I don’t trust. I have told my mom and she brushes me off so I can’t do this anymore.
I am going to move.
Yes I understand this is lunar eclipse(in my 5th house) and maybe the moon is impacting me but I must go.
