Trying to figure out if I should take an upcoming trip or not with this spread

[23Pickle]

Hi all, hopefully this will be interesting to some. I would be very grateful for any opinions or interpretation help.

[Spread](https://imgur.com/pVFYz3q)

https://preview.redd.it/rvv9m37hazia1.jpg?width=2048&format=pjpg&auto=webp&v=enabled&s=17145d90c1bb6ae7d8b9413c41daf115d3021554

First five cards are “what I need to know about the potential trip” and the bottom card is my final outcome.

10 of Pentacles / Strength / Knight of Pentacles / The World / King of Wands

Final Outcome: Two of Wands

My situation: I live in the Midwest and I have registered to attend an honest-to-god SEANCE in Louisiana in a few weeks, in early March. The seance will be given by a fully legitimate physical medium, so if conditions are right there will be direct voice and some level of spirit materialization and activity during the seance. I have been turned on to the truth of the spirit life since late 2019. The spirit team that would “lead” the seance is excellent so I have no worries about negative energies or entities at the seance or anything like that. I know it would be pretty amazing and definitely almost a peak experience of my life to attend a real seance.

However, I have a divided mind about it for the following reasons. I am a 38 year-old single woman and I would not be telling my family I would be going on the trip primarily because they do not believe or know about the spirit world in the way that I do. They’re normies and would potentially think it was 1) a fraud event that I have been fooled into attending, 2) weird and sad that I would be going to it, 3) something that would make them “worry about me,” even. That’s my very negative sense of it and I might be a little harsh with that anticipation, but I just don’t want to deal with it. So to an extent I’d be hiding it from them, and I’ve never hidden something as significant (something that involves taking a plane and an overnight stay in a hotel) from my family. I acknowledge too that I am not very open about my engagement with spirituality. There is the cost factor as well that I feel slightly bad about. It is still a pleasure trip. I am currently in school to become a mental health counselor so I am not rolling in money.

I think the top cards are indicating some of the energies that are contributing to my desire to attend the seance and/or what qualities are needed for me to get up the courage and willpower to attend. I would love some more help with this, however.

The final outcome card, the Two of Wands, honestly suggests to me I will not attend and will be stopped by my own indecisiveness. It indicates the half-start I’ve made with the trip thus far without completion.

Thank you so much for reading!! This really has been weighing on my mind.

Discussion

[blueeyetea]

If you’re going to ask about two options, you need two spreads: one to represent going, another for not going, and then you compare the two.

The way you asked the cards is like this: “I can’t make up my mind if I should go, or if should I stay” and the person you’re talking to answers you “yes”.