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In October I found out I was pregnant but pretty much straight off the back I knew something was wrong. I have always had dangerous and risky pregnancies so natural anxiety seemed the obvious cause of the ominous feeling but over the next week I chewed my husbands ear off becoming more and more adamant that my life was going to be in danger, I told him so many times we are marching towards something are we doing the right thing continuing with the pregnancy and so on.
I asked my guides but they didn't tell me anything, if anything they were unusually quiet during this period but I know now that it was because I couldn't stop what was going to happen so there wasnt any point in them adding to the worry. The only thing I saw was red… like blood red so I assumed maybe a bleed later down the line or something within my blood developing like gestational diabetes or something. Apparently I was thinking too literally.
At 9 weeks pregnant I suffered a minor heart attack whilst at home, obs were normal on the way to hospital but by the time I got up to get out of the ambulance I realised I had started to pass parts of the pregnancy. Obviously was a huge shock both the miscarriage and the pregnancy and a very weird night over all with zero abdominal pain, but quite frankly horrendously traumatic for reasons I won't go into here.
Fast forward a few days I am up on acute cardio unit with 3 elderly ladies. All were super lovely but the lady in the far corner suffered with early dementia I think just basing that off of a few odd things she said and general confusion from time to time. One day we were all sat talking about something totally unrelated when put of the blue she points at me and says, I want to take that little baby home.
Bewildered me and the other ladies looked at eachother and I asked her what baby. She told me the baby was laid next to me on my bed and then fell quiet. It put the hairs up on my skin and wondered if maybe she had seen the spirit of my baby that had to leave my body. It was just so abrupt and put of nowhere that it made me genuinely question whether it was just her dementia.
Edit: I cannot respond to comments because they are locked for some reason. But thank you for advice.