What is this feeling?

[Margaret]

So I don’t even know what I need to put in the search engine to get insight on this, and apologies if its been touched on here before I had a scroll and couldn’t see anything..
I lost my mother very suddenly and unexpectedly last September, and also a very close friend the previous April. And the last times that I was alone with each of them I had this overwhelming feeling of humility almost mixed with something euphoric.
Neither were sick, both were absolutely out of the blue death’s, not immediately after the meetings and not geographically close to me.
I had told my friends about this weird experience with my mum, we had up until this point had quite a rocky relationship but that last meeting was pure and genuine love. And the last time I saw my friend I had this mad hunger to keep him talking and close.

I’m not overly spiritual, I read my tarots for fun occasionally. I don’t know if this is a common thing but the other Internet keeps giving me grieving tips… Am I going mad?

Discussion

[Worth-Mouse-8887]

I had this too with my Nanna (mother’s side), I always got off the phone to her saying love you/talk soon. But, when I spoke to her hours before she passed (we made plans to have a coffee catch up in a few days time) I had this urge to tell her I loved her so much. I’m so glad that I did, because it was our last conversation.

[TheSaltyTarot]

It’s kinda bittersweet, knowing it’s your last time seeing someone.