When I was a teen I wished for my grandpa to die, and he did that same day… is this more than a coincidence?

[Madelyn]

Let me preface this by saying he was ill at the time and the doctors predicted that if he had another heart attack it would be sure to cause his death.

I was a self-centred angsty teen (around 14) and one day when I was talking to a friend in maths class, I was complaining about visiting my grandpa in his village this summer. As a family we usually went every summer and stayed there for months at a time, but I had no friends there and nothing to do. I half jokingly said to my friend that if my grandpa passed I wouldn’t have to go anymore. As I said this though I felt some sincerity, because I knew he was already ill and struggling, and maybe he would be at peace, and he had accomplished a lot in his lifetime, what I said was selfish, however I sensed completion. About 2 hours after I had said that, he had a heart attack and died on the scene. For some reason that day he had felt compelled to drive somewhere, but his car ran out of gas, he tried walking up a hill but it was too much for poor grandpa. I felt awful for ages after, like I was the cause of his death. That night I even had a dream where he came to me and I was crying and apologising but he said it was “too late” and faded out.

This was over 6 years ago now but I still think about this a lot and the impact it had on my family. I still feel regret and shame, and wish I hadn’t made that selfish joke. A part of me wonders if I was truly responsible, if I had something directly to do with it? Is it possible for someone to wish for this? And if there are any psychics reading, do you maybe sense anything from my grandpa? Sorry if it is a lot to ask. I just thought maybe someone here would have an answer or a thought. Anything is appreciated.

Discussion

[ChapterMaster87]

There is no way you’re responsible for this, it’s just a very unfortunate coincidence. Try not to beat yourself up too much about it, you made a stupid comment and unfortunately it’s caused you a lot of pain. Try to get passed it if you can, obviously that’s easier said than done.

[yumemikki]

It was not your fault that he passed, as you said he was already ill. Take this opportunity to learn from your mistakes. When we say hurtful things we inevitably feel foolish and regret it, especially when something bad comes after, whether it was directly related or not. Don’t beat yourself up over the past, instead learn from it and grow. I’m sorry for your loss I hope you can find peace with yourself ????????