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I think this is maybe a second or more time I have felt this in my life that is not depression related
I just literally don’t feel disappointed with life. Not dissatisfied. Just.. the only people who will be unhappy with my death are.m not me.
I look at everything around me.
I don’t feel fully like myself. But I also feel the attachment to things that is uncessarasy. Maybe it is a heart blockage. It’s not that I am ungrateful.
I don’t feel a resentment. I don’t feel a regret. Not a disappointment or regret. A still peace and acceptance.
So much comes up subconsciously for me to look at. I suppose I have two choices:
Go this way and end my life.. leaving with this feeling.
Or choose to brace and experience huh?
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not a cry for help. have you ever completely felt okay with dying?
updated 1 year, 10 months ago
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There’s no such thing as “death” imo; only transition.
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My cousin, who is definitely more like my twin brother, feels this way on occasion. And while it’s not a “depressive state” (bc he has had those…. Frequents them as well as manic episodes sometimes. He’s conscious of those, even!) but imo, its because I believe he ultimately feels…. *Useless.* Void of a purpose and no true responsibility to anything that exists. No children…. A s/o or spouse would still soldier on once hes gone, and animals too would be taken care of if he was to suddenly die.
He doesnt *want to die* but he says “I dont necessarily want to be here, either.” It may just be as complicated and as simple as this… you have to find what your “purpose” is.
Depending on your personal beliefs, there are teachings/ religions that believe that you live and die multiple times, right? Reincarnation…. And every life is meant for the spirit or soul to “learn” something, and to ultimately “pass a test” of sorts.
It could be that your lesson or purpose has not revealed itself in this life cycle…. And maybe, your existence this time around is meant to help *another spirit* with their journey. (I firmly believe there are some things we go through that can be especially difficult and we say “damn why me??!” And to that, my response is **“sometimes the lesson isnt meant for you.”**
Ending your life cycle prematurely may make that lesson to be learned impossible for the spirit it was meant for…. And could be detrimental to the growth of your own life cycle…
Lots of deep “ifs” I know, but it does indeed make me wonder some days. And I read your “not a cry for help” as genuine, but if you were to take your thoughts to a level beyond just the discussion, Id highly suggest finding an unbiased voice to help with those thoughts. 💕
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Yes, though I do read a lot about NDEs and have had many spiritual experiences myself. I did have an NDE too but as I was being pulled towards the light, I quickly realized I was dead and immediately went back to my body. I knew it was not my time.
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Death is just the final point of your experience. Something that gives this experience sense, since with infinite time we would end up doing all the choices we want, so wouldn’t be crucial to make decisions or aim for something instead of something else. After years I don’t fear death anymore for two main reasons: I know is not the end and I am doing what I really want to do in this lifetime. We could die any moment for any reason, but if you do all the time what you really want and matters for you will be always ok to go: is impossible to accomplish everything we hope for, but I don’t waste a second
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Honestly that’s my regular view on it. I’ve lived a good life, I’ve helped a lot of people in their darkest times. When my time comes, I will greet death like a long lost friend.
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Yes I’m ok with dying just now.. I’ve given up on myself and people make me angry
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I’m not only okay with dying, I’ve been looking forward to it since I was a child. Just because I believe I will get concrete *answers* upon death. Most of what I’m doing here, is blindly guessing and connecting dots.
Still, nobody’s taking me out before my time.
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I don’t want to die but I haven’t been afraid of dying for at least 7 years now. For a while I was totally Blaise about my mortality. But now I have 3 pets that depend on me and when I think of dying on my way home from work I get sad that no one will be able to take care of them (not exactly true but the fact they depend on me makes me care a little bit more about making it home alive) lmao. Yeah writing all this out makes me sound a bit disturbed but *shrugs*
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I don’t fear death at all but I’d be bummed if I died because there’s so much I still want to experience. That being said, the feeling of not feeling connected or indifferent about living or dying can be caused by a lot of things, when that happens for me it’s due to not being adequately grounded. You need to ground your energy and tether to earth, you’re energy is likely in the clouds. The clouds is a pleasant place to be, but the ground is where you get the full human experience.
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Absolutely. And trust me, this feeling is very distinct from feeling suicidal. The difference lies between having respect and appreciation for death as a force, vs craving death as a means of escape. I see death as something to not fear, but something to look forward to without rushing towards.
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I was really sick and near death at age 17. I told my mother I wasn’t afraid of dying, just afraid of what I’d miss out on.
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I am very sad because I lost someone close to me- and I don’t. Feel like I can go on alone
My heart aches- I look forward to leaving this world- and hope I never have to come back because it’s difficult here
I hope the after life is better than this real life
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Definetly don’t end your life. If you feel suicidal, please seek help and talk to someone. I don’t fear death, but I don’t want to end my life. The two are very different.
But to answer your question: yes. I was stabbed and it hit an artery and I thought I was going to die. But I felt weirdly calm and okay with it. I survived….or did i? Muhahaha! A cop saved my life. The EMS couldn’t come to the scene until the police cleared it. The first cop on the scene said, “fuck that”, threw me in his car, and coded to the ambulance. I will be forever grateful to him.
FYI I was bouncing out of a club when this happened. A guy assaulted a woman, and I was dragging him out when he stabbed me. In the neck.
But yeah, I can now totally relate to that feeling. Death doesn’t scare me personally, but it makes me worried for those I would leave behind. And I have no feelings of wanting to take my own life. I’m going to enjoy it while I have it.
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You sound extremely depressed and like you’re oppressing yourself. Is there nothing you want to do? Nothing you enjoy doing?
It sounds like deep inside you definitely feel things, you’ve just told yourself they’re not okay and denied them. If you want to die, there are definitely reasons. Why aren’t you being honest with yourself?
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to be, or not to be….
