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I think this is maybe a second or more time I have felt this in my life that is not depression related
I just literally don’t feel disappointed with life. Not dissatisfied. Just.. the only people who will be unhappy with my death are.m not me.
I look at everything around me.
I don’t feel fully like myself. But I also feel the attachment to things that is uncessarasy. Maybe it is a heart blockage. It’s not that I am ungrateful.
I don’t feel a resentment. I don’t feel a regret. Not a disappointment or regret. A still peace and acceptance.
So much comes up subconsciously for me to look at. I suppose I have two choices:
Go this way and end my life.. leaving with this feeling.
Or choose to brace and experience huh?
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not a cry for help. have you ever completely felt okay with dying?
updated 1 year, 11 months ago
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You are here to experience life. If it is generally tolerable, just keep going. Death/transition will happen eventually anyway <3
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Yes. I’ve almost died a few times and it wasn’t bad at all. Even when there was a lot of suffering to get me there. Dying was the easy part. It is quite peaceful.
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One night I felt very sick and laid down on my bed. I remember feeling like I was going to die and this feeling of bliss washed over my body. I went to sleep thinking “if I die, that’s okay”. I thought maybe I was crazy until my husband said he felt the same exact thing around the same time.
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Clarity of awareness it is what it is. Now what? Is that all the enlightenment you want? Can you expand further and get better insights? Yes you can and here is where it is at. Happiness does not serve survival. Happiness comes and goes. Practices last, purpose is there. Purpose gives you drive. To spark that, one should practice compassion. Therein lies a multitude of things to be done. Conscious detachment should be discerned as something different from apathy and depression. Aversion is as much a problem as attachment is.
I kept going. I keep going. Choosing purposes daily. Compassion for all ,lol, even shaking my fist at some. -
I think it depends on your age. If you’re having these thoughts at 70 well okay. If you’re 20; something is amiss.
As a suicide survivor, professional psychic reader, and someone who has dx’d OCD & severe generalized anxiety; I would say that it isn’t the intentional function of the body to operate in the opposite of survival mode.
survival is written in our DNA and that’s why people fight so hard to live.
so when things are like ‘I’m ready to die…’ again as somebody who has, you know… dealt with “mental health issues” in the past, I would say that it’s possible that you could be having some type of depressive episode that you’re not aware of.
You remind me of a client of mine that I had, and about a year later he ended up ending his life. I met him here on Reddit, in this forum, and his message started out almost exactly the same as yours.
So I would encourage you to seek some therapy or counseling from someone who is trained to diagnose mental health issues because your brain is VITAL!
What I learned losing my client is that human beings do not reach out for help soon enough because we think we can handle everything on our own. We can’t. There’s nothing wrong with getting some help.
You might not even think there’s anything wrong, but **apathy** is a symptom of some disorders like OCD.
Sorry if seems intense. After he died, I vowed to never again try to spiritualize mental health issues, and direct people to get help. I am also in therapy. Nothing wrong with it.
❤️
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As a mom of four children, death is not on my radar.
I don’t think about it anymore. I’ve made peace with the contract being the contract. I do not want to know my Exit Plan.
I plan on living until I’m super old and then hopefully they’ll have developed technology to greatly extend people’s lives over the next 50 years, and if that’s the case, I’m in like Flynn baby! I’ll take *all the chips* and everything cuz Immortality? bring it on!
I would like to do a bunch of things, and if I could die whenever I wanted that would be awesome.
Otherwise, I just want to live til I’m super old and I want to see as much of my family generation line play out as possible.
I want to see what my kid’s kids look like, and if I’m old enough to see their kids- that would be amazing and I want to be around long enough to make an impression on the world and on my family, definitely.
I don’t fear death. I’m not scared to die. nothing like that, but I definitely want to live till I’m at least one hundred.
No one gets out alive. We’re definitely not special in that any of us gets to escape death. However if there’s a way to extend it so that I could have another hundred years like I would totally take that in a heartbeat.
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Yes, I am a very happy person and have a fulfilled life. For all of that I have faced death many times and no longer fear the transition.
I also don’t just mean I have come close to dying, which I have; but I have also seen the specter of death when it came for a young woman I worked with.
